And now. Senior Year.
Right now...Not the best...Kinda depressing.
And that ^ doesn't describe what happens in between all the different years, after school, etc. Many things have happened such as: My church friend moves back home to Illinois. Sister is constantly yelling at me. Outpatient program in 8th grade. My family-friend/renter is turning into a jerk.
Even now as I type this my life is many things but 3 words come to mind.
Loneliness 'cause I have like no one to talk to. I do school at home now because class is sooo stressful. And the weird thing is that i feel more alone at school then i do at home.
Pain because it hurts. All the memories. All the feelings from the memories. All the people who were once in my life but have moved on from me to other people.
Depression because it all makes me feel really sad.
But here is the thing... I DON'T want to end my life. I may not like growing older or growing up, moving on, or change in general. I want to keep going. Why? Because I can feel in my heart that I will feel better whether it's in 10 minutes or 10 months or even 10 years. I know my heart is right. I may have been through hell and back but I'd go through hell and back a million times cause i know my life will be better.
I'm Michelle C. I'm 17 1/2 years old. I may not know what i want to do when i graduate high school.I may seem like i have a hard life. But I know it will become better. I may not be fearless, smart, or cool but i know what i am...
I Am Strong