It took me about half an hour to write this post (even though its not that long)

 

It's currently 2:30-ish am when I started writing this post. I have updated my blog's font and layout (and a few other things) this morning. No significant changes though. I had a coffee around 5pm yesterday (Saturday) and it's kept me awake since, which is semi-frustrating because I was working on fixing my sleep. Time to re-fix it again (lol).

On ESO, I've been leveling my (new) Nightblade Wood Elf (Maxx-Of-All-Trades) and using my main/templar to do misc/daily tasks along with fishing (Momo Mender Of All Wounds). With my nightblade, I am currently grinding out Alliance Assault War Skill for Caltrops (which is a pain to get, even with the Colovian War Torte which gives 50% boost to AP). I always, however, return to fishing with my main as a relaxing thing to do while watching YT or Anime (or listening to Distractible)

I've been playing "comfort games" over "new games", even though I have a long list of games (PS5 and PC) that I wanna start (ESO being the main comfort game). The list on PC is much longer than PS5 but I really wanna reignite my playthrough on Yakuza Series which happens to be on PS5/PS4.

I am now debating about rescinding my trying to give a daily mood update BECAUSE, in all honesty, I am pretty neutral when it comes to how I am feeling by the end of the day. And even if I was able to make notes throughout the day on my mood, I'd still like neutral about things unless something significant happens (Good or Bad). Even though some might not agree, I am pretty grey in the sense of Black/Bad and White/Good when I am doing better. Like I am not feeling like Im in a pit of darkness/despair/hopelessness NOR am I feeling like rainbows, sunshine, and pure happiness. Grey. I am currently grey.

(Here is my desk set up for traditional artwork. I want to work on my Copic Marker Coloring and Inking with G-Pen Nibs. The list on the book holder is my grocery list lol)

Gonna try a thing (for myself)

So I'm gonna try a thing. I'm going to do my best to make a post (hopefully) daily to keep track of my mood and mental state. I will start next week on Sunday so it can start on a fresh week. I hope this will work. My therapist(s) suggest that I keep a journal about how I am doing but I like posting my emotions, feelings, etc. on this blog. And even though others can see it, I don't care. It's just something I like to do. I don't have to justify anything. And plus, I wanted to be posting on my blog more anyway. It's fun and a change of pace than just using peloton, playing games, watching youtube, etc. etc.

On a different note, ESO announced the next chapter/DLC = Gold Road. I am excited for it, as ESO is my comfort game and I love seeing new/or reimagined places of the Elder Scrolls games (like Western Skyrim with Solitude or the beauty of sunflowers and sea High Isle). My favorite zone is Summerset for the view and the fishing spots though my favorite zone that gave a class is either Necrom (Arcanist class, though I have yet to play it more) or Vvardenfell (Warden class, because I love bear). But nothing will ever replace my main, which is a base game class. My Khajiiti Templar Healer Main (though I DPS when I am running around on another armory build).

Next week two games come out from the last of my Pre-Orders (except when I am able to pre-order ESO: Gold Road). Those two games are Tekken 8 and Like A Dragon Infinite Wealth. I used to love playing Tekken 6 on PS3, though it looks different than I remember haha. And I still have yet to playthrough the Yakuza/Like A Dragon games (still on Yakuza Kiwami 2), but I have a lot of fun when I play them (I especially liked Yakuza Dead Souls even though that isn't part of the lore, it was mainly just a zombie x yakuza game haha). It's just I am in a comfort zone kind of gaming and I dont wanna have to focus on story, reading subtitles, and such right now. Its kind of why I haven't watched any anime recently, even though I want to. Due to my height, and the screen on the peloton, I cannot see lower on my TV so it makes it a bit harder to watch Yowamushi Pedal on Crunchyroll.

I have been drawing a bit more, like rather than tracing and recoloring. I've actually drew some things, both digitally and traditionally, that came out okay.

Mid-January Update

 

(This is a redraw/trace, I DON'T CLAIM TO OWN THIS POSE.

Been struggling at drawing so I sometimes trace and add my own flair to drawings made by others. 

Again, I DO NOT CLAIM TO OWN THIS DRAWING, I'VE PUT MY OWN FLAIR ON IT)

I have taken a bit of a break from Pokémon Scarlet, though I probably get the item for the final part of the DLCs in the Mystery Gifts via Internet. I've recently decided to get, or rather rent, a Peloton Bike. I hope with it (along with the App's other exercises and a healthier diet) to improve and lose some weight. As my weight is not where I would like it (almost 200lbs).

I know that:

• It will take a bit to lose weight
• There is a possibility that there will be like excess skin due to the weight loss
• Muscle has weight (similar to Fat) on the body

I have made a special document to keep track of my weight loss journey. And I have to say that my mood has really, really improved now that Christmas is over. I've also started to eat heathier, been trying to snack less (and when I do, I eat healthier alternatives), and drink more water (rather than Soda and Energy Drinks). My only caffeinated drink, each morning, is coffee with some creamer. I need to work on having a little less coffee and eat something for breakfast (like Oatmeal with/or Fruit, such as Bananas, Berries, Peaches, etc.).

My hope is to use the peloton (app or cycling) each day or every other day, along those lines BUT I will workout until my body says that's enough for the day. And even if that isn't as long as I would like, I will slowly increase my limit each day. 

My plan is to:

1. Cycle/Workout (either each day or every other) and keep track of how long along with other stats and information)
2. Weigh myself every Friday
3. Keep goals for each month
4. Keep track of how long I sleep
5. How I am feeling at the end of each month

ALSO, I plan to keep playing video games whenever I feel up to it. I've been oddly playing games more on my PS5 and Switch over my PC. Still playing comfort games though. Maybe I'll get back into Pokémon after the last part of the DLCs and continue my shiny hunting. Or maybe I'll work on getting achievements (on PS5) for Mass Effect: Legendary Edition or Dragon Age Inquisition. I really want to work on playing (and enjoying) the Yakuza/Like A Dragon Series (I am only on Yakuza Kiwami 2). I've on and off also been playing Naruto Ultimate Ninja Storm Connections (I HATE that the "cutscenes" are literally cut scenes rather than from the anime or remade with the characters. Like, somehow to me, that feels lazy on their part but I'd be a bit more understanding if they were on a time constraint or something). AND ive been playing Red Dead Redemption 2, and I've been accidently spending the in-game currency (cash) within the game instead of the bought currency (gold). Its very frustrating lol because I'll want to spend gold on something but instead I've spent like 100 on pants or something. And there is no undo button. I think right now, in the game, I have like 100 again, but I was at like 400 before  ha ha...ha... sigh.. lol