Where have I been the last month? (And other things)

 

I did not post on here for the entire month of April due to being very busy in real life. With my birthday (which felt more like an entire week of fun stuff) and a family friend visiting/staying at my place plus the Elder Scrolls Online Jubilee Event, I was preoccupied and wasn't able to really get on to my PC or have time to think of post(s) to make. Now, as the first day of May, I have had time to think and make some things I want to post about.

Why I love and hate fishing in Elder Scrolls Online

Near the end of April, I was able to get back into my daily things to do in gaming, especially in ESO. My favorite thing to do is turn off Zone Chat then go fishing in Summerset. Its really relaxing things to do. I love fishing in Summerset especially because A. its beautiful there and B. Pyandonean Bottles (iykyk). But my major gripe about fishing is that you can only filet one fish at a time with a small cooldown until the next filet. It just feels so slow sometimes. You cant spam the filet button like a container or whatever.

Why Competitive Overwatch is such a pain

I love playing Overwatch (especially with a friend or two). Competitive is okay if you dont take things too seriously to the point of rage. I mean you have to give it some seriousness, like with trying to win so you can earn Competitive Points and get good SR. I wish that you earned more than 15 damn points per win. And depending on your rank, you can either get minimal amount of points (25 per role in Role Queue) to a decent amount (650 per role in Role Queue) but thats only for grand master. Im stuck in Bronze right now which means I will get about 50 points per role as I queue as Healer or Tank (or Flex). And Gold Weapons are worth 3000 points. I wish you earned some points for how well you did in a match no matter if you lose or not, even if its a small amount. I currently have like 300points and i need 1700. So if I do the math 1700 divide by 15 which means i need about 114 WINS to get it (remember thats not including the End of Season Rank Rewards). I am at least somewhat learning from my mistakes per match.

I feel like I have to not play Quickplay next season and play ONLY Competitive to have a chance at getting a gold weapon (well another, considering that I have Zarya's gun gold.) I want to either get Rein, Reaper, Ana, or Mercy's Gold weapon.... Just taking forever. :(

My Birthday is April 1st By The Way

My birthday this year is going to be good because I have plans on and after with family. And honestly, despite my previous blog posts about how I never got along with family, I am happy to be spending it with family. I am on better terms with my Aunt and Uncle and they dont "deadname" me which is very nice.

The only gripe I have about birthday is that I dont have a day (yet) where I am spending it with friends. Its understandable because they have lives and jobs and stuff. I get that. I do. I just wish I could spend it with my buddy Stanz or maybe spend it gaming online with my Call of Duty Buddies. But we'll see how I am feeling because I haven't been in the mood to play CoD. Mainly been playing Dragon Age Inquisition, Elder Scrolls Online, or Apex Legends (recently got an heirloom for the first time). I want to like playing Warzone and Call of Duty Vanguard but I haven't in the mood but maybe if I start playing I can get in the zone like I do with Apex Legends.

Forcing Myself to do what I love

 I have been trying to push through the neutrality and no-enjoyment of things to at least play games even if it feels like going through the motions. It's easier to mindlessly play Elder Scrolls Online compared to an Insanity Playthrough of Mass Effect Trilogy or even a Casual Playthrough of Dragon Age: Inquisition. There is even a bonus even going on right now (March 17 - March 22, 2022) where there is bonus XP-Gain, Gold-Gain, and Harvest Nodes Loot. They probably implemented it because the Dungeon Queue is currently very broken and things at night to seem to get laggy-er for people. I mean it happens with most of their big updates, this update being update 33 + Ascending Tides DLC.

I haven't tried the new dungeons because A. Dungeon Queue is broken and B. I just want to be alone mostly. I mean I lurk in the guild chat, rarely saying anything. I need to level up My Necromancer and one of my two Nightblades because those are the two classes I dont have Maxed out at level 50. But I also want to take advantage of the increased harvest node loot on my main...

In all honesty, I dont really want to do anything but I am forcing myself to, hoping that this feeling will go away. I really just want to lie in bed, with music playing, and let myself zone out even more than I am already. But I feel like that is bad for my brain and my emotional state of mind. And even when I do, like, lie in bed to go to bed and zone out to try and sleep, I feel like I need to be doing something even though I dont see my enjoyment currently.

Maybe I'll find enjoyment in a couple of games that are coming out next week. Tiny Tina's Wonderland and Ghostwire: Tokyo. Or maybe I'll find enjoyment on my birthday because I have stuff I am going to be doing that midday at least. Honestly, I dont know. But I can hope.